My Redemption Story
Hi my name is Genevieve San Miguel. I am 30 years old and I live with my beautiful family in gorgeous Albuquerque, New Mexico where the sunsets resemble the color of cotton candy. They are amazing!
Hopeless and broken, those are the two words I would describe myself as before I came to know Jesus as my Lord and Savior at the age of 19. I was lost and going nowhere fast. I was seeking my identity in about anything I could grasp. Longing just to fill the emptiness and the darkness that I felt. I tried it all the alcohol, partying, and guys; just weren’t satisfying the deep longing in my soul. Something had to change or I was going to end up dead or in jail. God was the answer, the answer that I was seeking all along, but, just didn’t know it at the time.
One night I had come home from a very scary night that changed the trajectory my life forever. I had hit absolute rock bottom. I knelt beside my bed and just sobbed. I was in such a bad place. I had grown accustomed to the party life. Drinking had become my vice and I was known as the “party girl”, not a title that I was proud of either. My dad walked into my room as I was crying and asked me a question that I will never forget. He asked me, “how are you doing life on your own”? And thats when it occurred to me that I was trying to do life on my own. I had pushed God so far away and I thought that there was no hope for me, I thought I was too far gone. It was then that I gave my life to Jesus and it was as if in that moment the whole world had been lifted off of my shoulders. I felt peace and relief and all the shame, guilt, mistakes, ugliness, the seeking acceptance, the world and my sins had melted away and I felt hope.
I wished I could say that from there on I had followed Jesus on a straight path but, sadly that is not the truth. I soon fell back into my old ways. My new found identity became more of a performance. I felt like I had to be perfect in order to be used by Jesus. I tried to be “good”. When I failed at this I felt like God was mad at me. I viewed God in such an unhealthy way. I viewed Him as only being happy with me when I was doing the “Christian” duties such as; reading my bible, praying, attending church, being kind, and listening to Christian music but when I failed at these things I felt like He was mad at me and I envisioned Him shaking His finger at me, shaming me.
Fast forward, too when I became a mom to my second son. The moment when I saw his sweet, perfect little face I was overcome with a love that I never knew and it was at that moment when God had reminded me of His love for me. No matter what I did, He took it on the cross. All of it! He didn’t see me as the frail state of being a human but, through a blood-stained filter. The blood of Jesus had been poured out for me and there is nothing I could do that would cause Jesus to love me anymore or any less. His love for us is so overwhelming. Motherhood has definetely been the tool that God has used to remind me of His grace and love.
Here I am now at 30 years old, a wife to an amazing youth pastor, we lead a group of amazing teens in a very poverty stricken area. In a culture that is ridden with drugs, alcoholism, prostitution, sex trafficking, and homelessness, we literally get to be the hands and feet of Jesus. We lead with some incredible people. We are also raising four beautiful world changers, who also happen to be incredible kids.
My heart is for women of all ages to experience freedom in Jesus Christ. Especially moms. I also help lead the group of young ladies in our ministry along with some incredible women of God, teaching these young ladies that their worth doesn’t come from this world, but from Christ alone.
Ephesians 2:8-10 For it is by grace that we have been saved, through faith. And This is not from yourselves, it is a gift from God. Not by works, so no one can boast. For we are Gods handiwork, created in Christ Jesus do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
God has changed a broken girl who sought her identity in this world, into a woman who loves Him. He had refined me through my trials. He uses me to encourage others. One way He does this is through jewelry. He has blessed me with the talent of making faith-based jewelry. I started making jewelry as an out. I stay home with my four kids. and I needed something for myself. So I started making jewelry. What started as a hobby, has blossomed into a ministry. My hope and prayer is that my jewelry is used to remind women that they are fully known and loved by Jesus. I pray that women are reminded to walk confidently in the calling that He has placed in their life, no matter how insignificant it may look to those around us. I pray for revival in the hearts of women everywhere! I truly believe that this starts at home. It starts with you and it starts with me. We can be used to change the trajectory of this generation. We can be used by God to do amazing things! One life can make a difference.