Hi, my name is Sarahí Cervantes, I’m from Mexico and I’m 20 years old, and I want to share with you my testimony.
Since I was little I was taught to love God and to pursue God’s calling for my life, but I also used to be a very quiet person, with not a lot of friends. I dreamed a lot but I never did something to accomplish those dreams, until it came the opportunity to go to San Antonio to study. Days before going I promised myself to changed to whom I always wanted to be, and I did.
Everything was great, within the first two weeks I met a lot of people and I was happy, because I was who I always wanted to be.
Months after I got into a relationship, my first boyfriend. He was a kind, funny and he made me feel like the most beautiful girl. Time went by and little by little without noticing he started to take control over me, I wasn’t beautiful anymore. I was very innocent and I thought that being yelled, being controlled, being who he wanted me to be was how a relationship was supposed to be. (Yes, I don’t know why I thought that either.) He was destroying me little by little, and the person who I used to be wasn’t there anymore. I had no voice and when I tried to speak and defend myself, I was punished. I hurt my family and I lost all my friends, because he told me he was the only one I needed, and I believed him.
I was alone, trapped in an ocean of fear, I was drowning looking for a hand to hold, but it was dark and I couldn’t see anything.
“But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”-Isaiah 40:31
This verse was always on my mind and I prayed and prayed so that God could transform my life like It says there.
After a year I prayed and I asked God for strength to end what I couldn’t let go by myself, and days after I ended that relationship. After a year, living in fear, I opened my eyes and that ocean I was trapped in, transformed into an ocean of God’s love, and that was when I understood God was always there, hugging me when there was no one else, carrying me when I couldn’t walk, and loving me when I was looking for love somewhere else.
Singing has always been a form of expression and my favorite thing to do, and one day I was asked to sing a song that says “…so let go my soul and trust in Him, the waves and wind still know His name…It is well with my soul.” And that was when I understood that God was in control and that He died on that cross for me, because He loved me first, and that nothing or no one can ever separate me from His perfect love.
I learned to forgive those that hurt me like God forgave me. Even though is a process to leave that situation aside, little by little I’m learning more of myself, I didn’t know that I was brave and strong but now I know. Let God continue building that beautiful, strong, brave, and passionate woman in you, like He is doing it with me right know. Never forget that you are loved by a God that despite your mistakes, He will always wait for yourwith open arms. Now, being happy and loving life despite the ups and downs has been the best rest that God has gave me.
I know that I’m barely 20 years old, and that God has not finished with me yet, which is very exciting but definitely I’velearned a very valuable lesson for the rest of my life and it’s that I will never let my love for anything or anyone be greater than my love for God.
God bless you.